Thursday, 27 December 2007

Things we can learn from Dil Chahta Hai...

Freaking out and enjoying life doesn't need drugs or cigarettes

There are relationships apart from Bf/Gf, marriage, siblings, friendship that can be very emotional and true which is beyond the understanding of many people



And yeah even though U may be the best of friends there is always a limit which should never be crossed. Then it starts hurting...

Improving U r imperfections after you realize it, always take some time



You always don't need to show or prove your Gf/Bf how much U love or care about her/him, which can sound very boring and finally U R dumped

Believe in Love , true love will never let you down

Never be ashamed to go back to your old friends, friends are there to understand your mistakes

Do not be afraid of others, always think that others are afraid of you. (remember the Australian Beggar at the railway station)

Whenever you need your friend, remember that he is just a phone call away...distances can't separate friends

In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends

It's the friends you can call up at 4 A. M. that matter

The only unchangeable certainty is that nothing is certain or unchangeable

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with never say a word, and then walk away with a feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had

And last but not the least- do what your heart loves
Karo wahi jo, DIL CHAHTA HAI !!!

Friday, 21 December 2007

A mixed day with a lot of difference...

Today is a very different kind of day. Firstly, I have been feeling very sad and depressed for the way my loved ones are behaving with me. They always lie and never perform their duties correctly. Whenever there's a problem, I am the only person to solve it. They just keep mum and I feel the pain. What do you call this? If a person is truly loving and caring, they always support you and help you out of problems. But unfortunately, my loved ones are there only to share happiness. In case of problems, they are just unknown people. But yes, after the problems are solved, they come and patch up and again get ready for taking happiness. I have spent so much of my time with such people and only I know how much it hurts. When a person is dying, a single drop of water can save him. But after his death, even the whole ocean can't get him back. Same way, my near and dear ones give me ocean (to drown me) but never have I got that live saving drop of water

With these sad thoughts, I was just passing the day when I remembered that our beloved S K Naik sir is coming to visit us today. He is the hostel superintendent of Adilshahi house at Sainik School, Bijapur and quite close to me and my family too. They came and had good time at my home. He was happy to note my progress and congratulated me on the same. Of course, it was a big surprise for him to see my show-case full of trophies with Academic Excellence. After all, I was an academic failure just a couple of years back. But with honest efforts, I have had a turning point in life. However, this turning point is again sucked away due to certain reasons. And life is moving through sour times, yet again. All hopes seem to have disappeared and dreams have no place in life. Things have taken a bad shape again in my life. Almost everyone feels that I am having a bright life ahead. But only I know what is coming up

At around 3 pm, I was lying down and a shocking news was heard. His holiness, Sri Chandrashekar Swamiji of Shandilya Ashram is no more (standing in center adoring orange color clothes). This was really heartbreaking. Swamiji was a great person. I met him very recently when I had gone with my mom to his ashram. He was a spiritual leader and had a lot of effect on the lives of many people across the nation. He is worshipped by many people. When I met him, it was somewhat a heavenly feeling. I just managed to speak a few words with him. We had, in fact, gone to ask something about some family problems. However, as he was very tired, he was not in a position to listen to us. But he assured us that things will get well soon. My mom is a great believer in him. And my dad too. I, generally, dont find much interest in performing such activities. However, I dont know what took me there today. I was going in the afternoon itself wbut my mom stopped me and asked me to come with her in the evening. We went in the evening. So many devotees were present at the ashram. Almost everyone with tears in their eyes. After all, he was the only person who gave confidence to the general public and blessed them. His body was arranged in the manner prescribed as per Hindu rituals. And when I saw his face, it was just a kind of feeling, I can never express. Was it smile or was it sadness? It was not a blank face. It was trying to tell something to everyone in this world. There was bhajan going on. I could not move my sight away from his face. I wanted to decipher what he was telling. Once at least, it appeared as if he is meditating and he will get up and come to speak to us now. Once I felt as if he feeling some pain. It was a mixed feeling. There was a lot that could be read from his face. For not even a second did I feel that he is not alive. When someone in family dies, the whole family cries. But today, I could see thousands of people shedding tears from their hearts. This indicates his impact on the people. There are many feelings that I got and I am unable to express them

I started thinking about what has happened and what is happening. After all, what is this life? Seriously. Ask yourself, what is this life? More importantly, Who are you? Yes, who am I? Why have I come here? Why should I die one day? What is this system? These are some questions which everyone might think at one point of time. Today, I felt, the real purpose of life is to get an insight to ourselves. What are we doing in our life? Is that right? If not, why do we do it? Why are we so much bothered about materialistic things? Why do we think about such things which have no meaning? Why do people keep doing such things which have no relevance in life at all? Many questions. No answers

When I was thinking all this, I felt as if it was all death in life. What is there in this life expcept death? Lord Shri Krishna was the only person who came on the earth with a smile and he is immortal. We all have come with a cry and we all have to leave one day. I can never imagine the pain of death. When we have a small pain of fever or headache, we feel so much pain. Then, just imagine, how painful is death? What is this life meant for? People plan for future, accumulate money, plan for children, buy everything but what relevance does it hold. After all, everything has to perish one day

These are certain peculiar thoughts that have been flowing in my mind since many days (rather months) but with today's event, these thoughts have been intensified. All life is a big confusion. But one thing that I have learnt is people are life. Life can be a good feeling if we stay with good people. All happiness and sadness depend on the people we live with. Our life paths depend on them. We need support of great souls like Chandrashekar Swamiji who can guide us in right paths. We need experienced parents who have led life seriously and have understood it. We need life partners who contribute rather than expect. We need relatives who add value. Only then, life can be good. Everyone must have good thoughts and feelings. And all this must be under the blessing and spiritual shadow of the Lord God. Only then, life bears some meaning. Otherwise, life is meaningless. And unfortuntely, no one on the earth understands this

And today, yet another sad news came. Amitabh Bachchan's mother, Smt Teji Bachchan, also expired

A real dark day, as I can see...

Saturday, 8 December 2007

Aaja nachle... NCFM Exams cleared... Hurray...

Yes, its time to celebrate, its time to cherish the success achieved, its time to shout out to the world that I have started the move towards my business plans with a bang!


Guess What?

I cleared both the NCFM Exams !!!

The level of excitement is so high and I am very happy for this. My sincere thanks to the God for his support and millions of thanks to Goddess Laxmi and Goddess Saraswati for their timely support. I was not in a position to pay the fees for my exam. But then, luckily I got my dad's credit card using which I transferred the fees of Rs 2000. I got fired as my dad thought it was worthless. Even I felt bad that I wasted so much money for something in which I was certain to fail. The simple reason being that I never studied anything for the same. Due to certain situations that arised, I was very upset and I felt that it was a waste of money here too. But then, things took a turn


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For my Capital Market exams, I studied a lot. I covered 3 chapters in a single day. I was more confident about this exam compared to the second one. As I trade in shares, I do possess a good knowledge of the process, etc. I managed to study as much as possible. I stepped into the exam hall, almost hopelessly, just for the purpose of showing my presence. I thought, let me put in my best. However, I am supposed to be here for an hour and instead of sitting idle, let me try to do something. Things took a U-turn immediately. I started answering the questions with a lot of thought and interest. Some guarantees, some guesses, some on logic, some on lottery :-), some on experience, some on previous day's study and so on. I started feeling that I can succeed. I suddenly thought about my business plans and felt that I need to get a little more serious. I started making efforts using the trial and error method, odd answer eliminatons, etc. It, being an objective type of examination, was easy from one angle but difficult from the other. And unfortunately, there was negative marking too. I did my best and closed my eyes, prayed to God, and submitted the paper. And a million thanks to him, I got 68.5% and cleared the exam. I was so excited. A sigh of relief passed through me. More importantly, my 1000 rupees did not go waste


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The moment I came out of the exam block, I felt that the lady luck was with me. I started thinking about the next exam, ie, Derivatives Module or Futures and Options Markets. It was something completely new to me. I was confused as to what has to be done. But then, people started celebrating my success. And their expectation was so high from me. They were more confident than me that I will clear even the second exam too. Come on, is this a fairy tale? Even then, they said that I will definitely clear the exam. I came home and my head was bursting. Due to all this road renovation going on in this city, the traffic has become hell. I was almost feeling like cutting my head and throwing it away. Seriously. It was paining too much. So much that I was not even able to lay down with my eyes closed. I managed to get a Saridon and slept. I woke up around 10.30 for my dinner. After the food, I was feeling a little comfortable. Then, I thought about the exam next day. I knew that I will definitely fail. I don't even know that ABC of Derivatives. And not feeling healthy too. I just took the book and started reading. It was very interesting. But I was feeling sleepy too
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Suddenly, I thought-"Today is an opportunity. I can make the best of it and be successful now itself. Else, I will have to wait for the next exam (around 3-5 months). 1 night or 3 months?" The moment I got this thought, all sleep was killed. I sat firm and went on
It was midnight 12
12 turned to 1
1 to 2
2 to 3
3 to 4
4 to 5
5 to 6



Everyone at my home started firing at me. I was being scolded many a times at night for having not slept. But then, this was a serious moment for me and I did not bother much. And more importantly, my dad was moving to Nagpur for a 15 days Training Course and I was supposed to drop him at 7.30 in the morning
6 to 7
And it was over

I completed studying the entire derivatives module. It was like me flying over the clouds. Unlimited joy. After all, a whole night's sleep was sacrificed for this
I had a quick bath and went with family to drop dad to the railway station. The train was delayed and I had to be there till 10. After that, I moved home, had breakfast and went to the exam
What more can you expect now?

It was a rocking performance. I completed the exam within 25 minutes while the timing scheduled is 2 hours. I knew that I will definitely score more than 60% which is the requirement to pass. I waited for some time. One hour was up. I couldn't wait anymore to celebrate the joy. I submitted the test
And guess what!!!
An awesome score of 77% in the exam
I was very happy for my efforts fetched fruits and again, I saved my 1000 rupees :-)
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A million thanks to the God, my parents and my wellwishers whose confidence in me was one of the strongest force that influenced me to study all night

I wanted to have a blast after this. However, my dear friend, Sachin just missed it by a small margin and this saddened me a lot. He could have easily cleared it if he would have paid a little more attention, just a little more

I remembered my Class XIIth days when I too failed in Physics by just 4 marks. Those 4 marks are still having an impact on my life, a strong impact. Even after creating academic records at my college, I still feel bad for those 4 marks

Nevertheless, life is an ocean of these pains and happiness

Nothing is permanent but change

I left for the day with content and satisfaction
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With this, I can say that I have cleared the first hurdle in setting up my business

Not just cleared, cleared it in style baby!!!